Monday, November 23, 2009

So much

I have learned so much while being here. From little things, like filling a syringe with PIT, checking heart tones, putting episiotomy and birth sets together to big things like administering PIT or vitamin K, actually delivering a baby and doing the newborn exam.
But I haven't only learned things in the natural or only related to midwifery. I think I have learned the most spiritually. But I haven't just learned these as head knowledge though, I have finally learned these with my heart.

I have learned that He won't make me give something up to follow Him... I have to being willing. But if I ask Him for His will, and really actually want it, I know He will help me to forsake all.

I have learned that no matter what a women in labor is feeling or no matter the language barrier, a smile really says it all.

I have learned to go beyond my comfort level in trying to speak their language and learning how to get from one place to another... He knows my weakness with directions!

I have learned that it doesn't matter what I look like to others, only what He sees matters... and believe me, He sees all!

I have learned that He really and truly loves me and wants me. Not because I have done anything to deserve it but simply because... well.. He loves me! It is simply amazing to be loved for no reason!

I have learned that there are always exceptions to the rules, in both midwifery and spiritually and the most important thing is to be led of the Spirit in all decisions.

I have learned that God always has a plan for me and if I will just stop and listen He will tell me.

I have learned that my family is a priceless treasure but that it must not become and idol for me... which is all too easy!

I have learned that there is nothing too hard for Him! Nothing!

I have learned so much more... this is just the tip of the iceberg. But one of the most important things I have learned is that He created me, every bit of me. And I am perfect in His sight. Do I fail in the natural? Yes. Am I perfect from the world's point of view? No. But to Him I am "As a lilley among thorns, so is my love among the daughters." (Ok,ok, so it really said lily.. not lilley)
That to me, is the most amazing, almost unbelievable, incredible,thing of all!

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